Tragedy on 18th May...

Last nite, I go to bed around 12am… But I can’t really close my eyes, seems like something is not right.. At last without I noticed it, I fall to sleep.. Around 5.58am, I woke up and build my Solat Subuh.. After that I try to sleep but I can’t.. I'm forcing my eyes to closed.. Then around 8.45am, I woke up and took my bath.. My plan 4 today is taking a passport picture.. Before that my moms ask a favor from me to send some foods 2 her school… So, I’m riding Modenas Scooter, JHJ 1038 with my sister.. After finish all the ‘task’, I’m decided to go back.. My sister is taking the scooter’s key and start the engine.. I’ll let her 2 ride that scooter.. She drove the scooter like I’m having a baby.. Then I ask her 2 slow down but she refused it.. Suddenly, in the corner right before my house, she saw a car came from the corner, she can’t control the scooter and then we fell on the tar.. Thank god there is an Indian guy who helps us… Up till now, I still not talking to my sister.. I never having a little scratches on my body.. Now, my elbow, my pump, my calf, and my knee having a real scratches and full of bruises.. I really hate it.. I can’t go to gym, can’t ride my bicycle, hard to bend my calf, can't clip my nail even brush my teeth.. Thank god nothings happen to my face.. If that’s happens I’ll kill my sister 4 doing dat..! Nway, thnks 2 my mom, who are alwys besides me when I need her.. Love u umi.. As a conclusion, I will not giving my sister to ride a scooter..!

I would like to do in five years

I would like to do in five years

I assume that I will be 24 years old after 5 years from now. What I would like to do in 5 years? Hurmm, I just wondering what will happen in me. Maybe a wife to my hubby, a mom to a 3 children, working, have own car, have own condo, maybe in process to accept that my parents no longer here? Everything is possible. Isn’t? But I still hoping that 5 years from now I still have my parents, my sister n my brother.

Of course I would like to have a successful life in the future, get what I’ve dream, repay back all those what have my parents did, ‘take a revenge’ , have my own life, and take a step to be what I want to be (a chef).

What would like to do in 5 years..?

Study

Ü Graduate with honor in UiTM Dungun

Ü Finish my A-level in Taylor’s College

Ü Bring back my degree scroll from London, Jamie Oliver’s College to Malaysia

Career

Ü Working in Burj-Al-Arab, Dubai as an Executive Chef

Ü In planning to open my own restaurant. Taszlicious Café & Restaurant

Life

Ü I’ve meet someone that truly sincere will take care of me

Ü Plan to get married with him

Ü Plan to buy a condominium for my own, my dream car, my mom’s dream car, a condo to my parents, buy them a tickets for their honeymoon around the world.

Ü Sign a document that state I will donate my organ when I’m no longer here

Savings

Ü Make sure in my account I already have USD 100 000

I hope my dreams come true.. So that I will shows to the people, I can do it whatever they are talking about my career. Prove that I can survive and success in this career.

My Dream Man

My Dream Man

Quality of My Dream Man

• Appearance

- 6 feet tall
- Caucasian
- With spectacles
- Sharp nose
- Good looking guy
- Nice nails
- Sweet smile
- Spikes hair & nice haircut
- With Dimple
- Have Muscles
- Nice voice

• Emotions

- Pious
( My dream man will be the one that can bring me to the right path, My dream man is a Muslim. The only relationship more important than the one between me and him is his relationship with Allah )

- Romantic
( My dream man will do little things to make me smile. He'll open doors for me, pull out my chair, fix dinner, and give me flowers and say that he love me so much )

- Caring
( My dream man will be the doctor when I had a fever, he willing to do anything to make me cure )

- Responsible
( When I’m in pregnancy, he will take me from work, take me to the hospital for medical checkup)

- Loving
( It is enough when he tell me that I’m his oxygen. And he tell me that he can’t live without me )

- Loyal
( I’m his wife and I’m the only one that he will love forever & ever )

- Trustworthy
( Nothing can break us because we have trusting in each other )

- Give & Take
(I hope he loves me for me. No matter how my hair looks, how much I weigh, how ugly am I, how stupid am I, how many pimples I have, how I cry, how I laugh or even what I'm wearing. He only wants to be with me and just me )

- Not a hot tempered person
( I hate this type of man. I don’t want to be hurt by a guy just like Rihanna felt )

- Funny & full sense of humor
( I love to laugh and I love a man that can make me laugh )

- Sporting
( He willing to do anything for me )

- Warm
( It completes everything )

- Understanding
( Easy to make a decision in a certain matter )

• Life

- Career man
( I love a man that have ambition, future and I can be a fulltime housewife, take care him, take care of my children )

- Rich
( I love shopping, so he should understand his wife )

- A lot of savings in bank
( This money for our future so that we can have a honeymoon in overseas, holiday around the world and build Hajj together )

- Smart
( So that he can be a successful man )



Everyone wants a perfect dream man/woman in their life to make life more colorful. Am I right..? If we get a man with those qualities, it will be just nice and great..Right…? Certain people will get what they want but before they get it, Allah will give some task that they can or can’t stand it. Sometimes Allah didn’t give what we want but He changes it to a better one. We never know what He has plan for us..

Whatever I’ve listed on the list, I’ll let Allah do His work because I know He knows better than I did, He knows what I should get, what is the best for me because of what..?
Because He is my creator..

Everything in His hands, if He says that I should have it, so I’ll have it. If it is not for me, than it’s not for me. I’ll let Allah do His work and I as His slave do my own work to get His willingness.

Sometimes we didn’t get what we wish for because we didn’t know what will happen if we get it. Is it we will be thankful to Allah or in the other hand.

I always pray to Allah to give a better and suit man for me. So that if my parents no longer here, then he can take care of me like my parents did.

a short poem to read :

Today

Yesterday I told you, you make me happy.
You still do today.
Yesterday I told you, you make me smile.
You still do today.
Yesterday I told you, you make me laugh.
You still do today.
Yesterday I told you, you make me complete.
you still do today.
Yesterday I told you, you make me miss you so much.
you still do today.
Today I’m telling you I love you.
And forever I still will.

Jolene

The Best Thing That Has Ever Happened To My Life..

Too much best thing happened in my life. My previous lifestyle is hard to say. We’re in average family. My father works as a Government Servant in Lembaga Kemajuan Ikan Malaysia. My mom works as a teacher in Smart Reader in Bandar Tasik Selatan. My mom has deep desire in kids. My mom decides to open her own kindergarten, Firzana Edu Center. Now our life became much better than before. Thanks to Allah for HIS richness and willingness to give us a bit of HIS rezki to us.

Now, let me tell you guys about my best thing that has happened to my life.
When I was 5 years old, my dad bring us the whole family my mom, my brother when he was in standard 4, and of course my little sister when her age was 2 years old. We were in a trip to form Hajj.

Our 1st transit was in Pakistan. The airplane stops at Karachi’s Airport. After we arrived, we were waiting for 5 hours in Karachi’s Airport to get the next flight to London. After catch a flight to London, it takes 8 hours to arrive in Heathrow Airport, London. We will be in London for two weeks.

After arrived London, we took a bus to go to Birmingham. It takes around 2 hours to get there. It takes around 2 hours to get there. In two weeks, seems like we cover the entire most favorite’s attraction place in London. The place that has been covered is St. Stephen Tower of the Palace of Westminster, London Bridge, Malaysian Hall, Harrods, Blackburn, Sheffield, and Tower of London. When we were in Sheffield, we have gone to the mall. My mom buys a pair of cloth to my sister and me. We kept all the cloths until now even we cannot fit the shirt.

It’s time to take another flight to get there, Makkah. After 5 hours we struggling to form a solah in flight, at last we arrived safe and sound. Before we go to Makkah, we have our visit in Madinah first then we will be in Makkah right after the visit. The place that have been visited is Baqi’ Grave (our prophet’s wife and friends grave), our prophet Nabi Muhammad S.A.W‘s tomb, Quba’ mosque. After finished visited the entire place, we continue the journey to Makkah. We will be in there for 2 weeks and start our deeds to make us close to Allah S.W.T.

Before we return back in Malaysia, we buy something for our relatives as a memory from Makkah. We buy Air Zam-zam, prayer beads, atar oil, dates, and some books that we still kept in our wardrobe. It’s time to return back Malaysia. It was a great memory when I’ve been there. I can saw the Hajarul Aswad and get into it with help from the guard, memory having a Tawaf in front of Kaabah.

Before return back in Malaysia, we were having a transit in London for three days. At this time, we were visited place that haven’t visit yet. After three days, we were having a transit in Karachi for 5 hours. Then, we were having a flight back to Malaysia.
I just miss Makkah, even I was a small little girl but I can remember all the scene and what happened when I form a Hajj. It like just happened last day. I hope I can go back in there with my family, my hubby and my kids with my own money.

I just miss the moment.



Praise upon HIM ( Nabi Muhammad S.A.W )

Al-Fatihah..

What I Would Like To Change About Myself..

I was thinking, possibly a pointless thought, but really if there was anything that you could change about yourself, physically, mentally, or any of that. What would it be? Assuming that it’s almost impossible to overcome right now being what you are or certain things about who you are? Seriously did I explain that clearly?


As for me, I would like change those things:

1. Smartness
- I’d wanted to make myself smarter, but I really think too much as it is. I always wanted to be able to jump a 10 foot vertical. That would just be awesome. I just want to make my parents and my family proud the way I am. That just the way to repay back what they have done to me. Thank you so much umi and walid..!




2. Exercise
- I suppose personality factors in here as well. I'd love to be bolder or more talkative, as with that would come more confidence with talking to the people around me. And help all my participation marks in class. Otherwise, I’d just really love to be able to work athletics into my lifestyle. I'm terrible at sports, but I've really learned recently that I need to get away from the computer and be more active or I'll end up with a 95 year olds body at 25..!

3. Feelings
- I wish I don’t have any feelings at all. I hate myself when I was loved someone. Every time I loved a guy I always been disappointed by them. They tell me that I’m too affectionate, loving and caring. That’s why they hard to tell the truth. Is it true my dear? Hurmm, maybe Allah got HIS better plan for me. But really, if Allah wants to take something from me, I wish HE take my emotion. Don’t leave any emotion in me..



12 things i hate about you :



1. I hate the way you talk to me

2. I hate the way you style your hair

3. I hate the way you treat me

4. I hate it when you stare

5. I hate the way you smile

6. I hate the way you read my mind

7. I hate you so much it makes me sick, It even makes me rhyme

8. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right

9. I hate it when you lie

10. I hate it when you make me laugh,even worse when you make me cry

11. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you did'nt call

12. But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close not even a lillte bit, not even at all




Everybody has some faults that one doesn’t like. So I was thinking, what if I list those things that I don’t like about myself and then try to either change them or learn to live with them. I don’t want to increase negative energy and start to hate myself, I just want to be better person and love myself fully. Serious.

How i spend my holiday..

When talk about holiday everything is about SHOPPING..!
I love shopping so much. For this holiday, my mom arranged everything for me. Let me tell you guys about my experience for this holiday.
23th January 2009
Excited to be back home.'Home sweet home'. Yet i'm gonna miss my friends in UiTM. My bus arrived at 12.00 p.m. It takes around 5-6 hours from Dungun to KL. Everyone is wishing take care. HE also wishing me too. Everything is going fine but i felt not feeling well on my way to KL.When the bus stop for a fuel,then i can't take it anymore because its killing me. So i've thrown out. Then my migrain in knocking my head. I've taking my medicine. Then my migrain is slowly cure. Alhamdulillah, i'm ok back. I arrived in KL around 6.00 p.m. My dad pick me up at 6.30 p.m. In car,we have some 'meeting' about a boy who i admire and about a secret. I can't feel the time is running. We arrived in home at 7.15 p.m. Then I run to get my mom. I just miss her so much..!

24 January 2009
I woke up early in the morning because i have a wedding to catch up in Setiawan, Perak. Its actually takes only 3 hours but plus with the jam,too much cars because of the public holiday then it takes 5 hours to go there. We arrived there at 3.00 p.m. All the food seems like finish but we are the 'VVIP's', so we get the bride's food. What the special menu is fried fish. I thought it just like in KL, Nasi Minyak with Ayam Masak Merah but in Setiawan, the menu is absolutely different. Nasi Minyak with Fried fish. Can you imagine..?hmmm... :) After finish up our food, then we are asking the bride's mother to go back home. Seems like rude but i can't stand the heat. Its killing me. At 11.00 p.m i was calling him for an hour. I just miss him so much..



25 January 2009
I woke up early, clean up my room. Maybe today I just sit infront of my laptop until I can't saw the screen of my laptop anymore. :) I've planned to go for shopping at Jusco to buy a hair bleacher, lens, and a shirt for my friend. His birthday will be in 3rd February. I guess i want to buy a John Master shirt maybe or just a Renoma shirt. But i think i would like to buy a FCUK shirt at One Utama in Damansara. But i've not made up my mind yet. Which one is better..?hmmm...
:(
26th January 2009
Today,my mom planned to go to the One Utama Mall in Damansara. I've never been there. Quite excited. We've arrived around 2.30 p.m. We're searching for a parking,alhmdulillah we got one. Actually it was Chinese New Year. So a lot of shops was closed.A bit of dissapointed. But ok. We're just having our great time together. Watching a dragon dance. It makes me feel so happy because of the dragon is damn so cute. I also can learned a little bit of chinese culture. Such as the dance itself. Its all about a way of life. So much barriers to achieve something. One more thing after the dance is complete, the dragon will be given an ang pow as a compliments to them and as a Feng Shui or the person who give the ang pow will have a good luck.After watching it,we've decided to go to Mydin in Subang Jaya. Tomorrow we've a kenduri doa selamat in my house. So much thing to buy.We've arrived at home around 10.30 p.m.
27th January 2009
I woke up early today for helping my mom to cook food for the kenduri.My mom was asking my help to make a dessert and a Sambal Belacan for the guest tonight.The menu for the kenduri is Ayam Masak Merah,Ikan Tenggiri Masak Lemak Cili Api,Sambal Belacan and some 'Salad' (Ulam). :) hehe. The main function of the kenduri is to gather my family together because of now we hard to meet each other and to strengthen the relationship between the neighbour and of course the relatives itself.The kenduri ends around 12.30 a.m.Tired but happy because I can meet my cousins,my auntie so on and so forth.
28th January 2009
I woke up at 10 a.m because my sister and I have decided to hang out together at Mines Wonderland. I also have a lot of thing to buy. My mom gave me RM 50. I bring my own savings RM 200. My sister bring together her boyfriend.Faiez. Quite good looking boy. She walked with her boyfriend and i walked with my cousins that 5 years younger than me.We've watching a movie.'Maut'.Not bad.The movie really makes me realised about my sins.hmmm. :( After watching the movie,we go to the pray room to solat zuhur.After solat,I was buying a voir t-shirt,contact lens together with the solution,and of course the present for the birthday boy.I was buying him a Cheetah's shirt.The price is quite expensive but its reasonable for that type of shirt.We've arrived home at 6.30 p.m. After arrived home,my mom tell me that she wants to drive my father to the KLIA because he got a meeting to catch up in Tongi,Bangladesh.Then we arrived home safe and sound.
29th January 2009
After Zuhur,my mom,my sister,my cousin and I ready to go to Sunway to watch a movie. Bedtime story.It was my brother's treats.The movie was really great. Its all about a imagination.Everything in the story come a live.Just look at the actor. Adam Sandler.Of course the movie is great.After watching a movie,we've go to Popular book shop. I was really want to buy a Obama book. And i've buy one. The tittle is Obama 'Antara Islam,Israel,dan Amerika' written by Taufik Rahman. The book is all about the secret of the great personality of Obama.Then we've go to J Co cafe to buy some doughnuts. I love Tiramisu doughnut.The taste is great!you guys should have a bite.
30th January 2009
After maghrib,we drive to go to Downtown in Bandar Tun Razak.We just walking,watching and laughing together.I was searching for something that He likes.I'm telling my mom that He love liverpool. Then,my mom found something. My mom said that 'This is just right for him.' Then,i ask my mom to buy it for him.I was happy because I've something to give him.Small but meaningful.Around 12.30 a.m we decided to back home. Before that we go to the McD to buy some food.Actually we boycott it but I'm telling my mom that i really want to eat prosperity burger.Just for the last time I said.At home,I slept late because i've been busy to packing my stuff.I will be back in Dungun tomorrow.So its better i'm packing first.I've slept around 4 a.m.
31st January 2009
I woke up at 10.30 a.m.Have my bath and breakfast then my mom drive me to Mines to change the shirt for my friend because the salesperson gave me the wrong size.My sister and I was running because we are catching a time.My bus arrived 12 p.m.The time right now is 11.15 a.m.We run like crazy. :). Alhamdulilah,we arrived there just nice.When my mom searching for a parking,I'm searching for my bus.Sad to leave my mom.But I have to.
Thats my experience for this short holiday.Great,fun and awesome.